posted 8 hours ago with 199 notes via unexpectedtoast and endcastiel
tagged as: #being human us #pellegrino #this is still rude haley #so rude 

You are five years old,
and your knees ache
from kneeling on the
cold floor of the church,
and the teachers tell you
not to complain because
Jesus suffered with nails
driven into his hands and feet,
and your pain is nothing
compared to that.
You run your hand along the wood
of the pew and catch a splinter
in your finger, and you smile
because it hurts, oh God, it hurts,
but now you’re closer to the man on
the cross, now you are experiencing
more pain like he did.
You leave blood on the church floor,
and your knees creak when you stand.

You are seven years old,
and they are telling you
that you were born into sin,
that there is an ugliness to
your soul that you cannot
scrub away.
They tell you to confess your sins
to a man acting as God,
even though you are a child
and the most wrong you have ever
done is forgetting to pick up your books
from the kitchen floor.
You tell God this, and a priest laughs
and says that your sins are washed away.
Your mother tells you that you are clean now,
but you do not remember
feeling dirty in the first place.
They put a gold cross around your neck,
and it’s the prettiest thing you own.

You are twelve years old,
and you pray because
you are a good girl
and you think that your
father will smile again if
you ask.
He does not, and you try
to cover your bruised knees.

You are fourteen years old,
and you ask questions in class
because all the lessons and Bible verses
have stopped adding up and you don’t understand
how God could always love you, but still let you burn.
Your teacher tells you to read it all again.
The cross around your neck feels heavy.

You are fifteen years old,
and there is something dark inside of you,
something that lives in your bones
and makes you feel like you are drowning,
makes you feel like there is no escape.
You still pray, let some desperate plea
claw its way from your throat as you wait
for salvation to end the pain,
for God to take it all away.
You turn your skin into a lattice;
you stop praying eventually.

You are sixteen,
and you arrange two cigarettes
into a cross, and the boy lying
beside you tells you that he never took
you as the religious type.
You kiss him, and he tastes
like communion wine and nicotine.
You pretend that you feel whole,
that you aren’t spilling out of your seams.
You tell your father that you don’t think
you believe in what you hear at church
anymore, and he says that he doesn’t
know how he raised so weak a daughter.
You do not tell him that you still dream
of sleeping forever.

You are seventeen years old,
and you believe in yourself.
You believe in the universe pulsing
beneath your skin.
You believe that salvation comes
from your own two hands.
You feel complete,
and your knees have stopped creaking.

— Emily Palermo, I Used to Wear a Cross Around My Neck (via starredsoul)
posted 10 hours ago with 1,253 notes via kngfishergrl and starredsoul
tagged as: #!!! #promises to fear #words 






IN 2016 (x)

posted 11 hours ago with 15,607 notes via tommyshphrd and splderwoman
tagged as: #eeeeeeeeeee #neWS 

Your father made you and then abandoned you, so you pray. You see signs where there’s nothing. But truth is, your Apocalypse came and went, and you didn’t even notice. A mother would never abandon her children like he did. You’ll see.

posted 12 hours ago with 643 notes via mooseleys and ladiesofspn
tagged as: #supernatural #eve #a better parent than god could ever hope to be #my beautiful mother monster 


but it really is so important to find people who don’t lose patience with you or get angry if you’re being irrational or insecure or downright ridiculous, it is so so necessary to be treated with gentleness from loved ones and not to be made to feel like you’re irritating or a burden


I share the burdensCarried on the heart of one in need

swgraphicchallengeruedesarchives vs samhellboundprompt: Forgive Me by Nural


I share the burdens
Carried on the heart of one in need

ruedesarchives vs samhellbound
prompt: Forgive Me by Nural
posted 13 hours ago with 785 notes via fuckyeahlucifersupernatural and ruedesarchives
tagged as: #supernatural #sam winchester 

mythology meme:  [3/3] mythical rulers

↳ romulus and remus of alba longa

Twin sons of Mars and Rhea Silvia, they were nursed by a she-wolf as infants and raised by a simple shepherd and his wife. Once they reached adulthood, they helped overthrow the false king of Alba Longa. Rather than press their own claim to the throne, however, they decided to restore the rightful king, and found a new city of their own. A disagreement arose, concerning the location of this new city; the brothers fought and Remus was killed. Romulus founded Rome and brought it glory, but as the years passed he became increasingly autocratic, and in the end either disappeared, ascended to the heavens to become a god in his own right, or was killed by the Senate, depending on the particular version of the myth.

posted 1 day ago with 6,629 notes via msbrokenbrightside and charlesmmacaulay
tagged as: #mythology and other 


I belong to the front, you belong to the tail.

GET TO KNOW ME MEME → [4/5] favourite films

Snowpiercer (2013)
posted 2 days ago with 3,660 notes via -wondersmith and officialwiccan
tagged as: #snowpiercer #films 
posted 2 days ago with 1,230 notes via maraparkers and gadree
tagged as: #supernatural 

❝ The fact of his pulse,
the way he pulled his body in, out of shyness or shame or a desire
not to disturb the air around him.
Everyone could see the way his muscles worked,
the way we look like animals,
his skin barely keeping him inside. ❞

posted 2 days ago with 68 notes via danedeham and anabelsbrother
tagged as: #words #sammy